I feel like a I can't do anything right no one cares and I fuck everything up, but who doesn't. Maybe it's because when I hit my head a few hours ago it fucked things up I don't know. I can't even write thins here or anywhere. Over, Out...

Somedays it's not worth getting out of bed. Everything is just a senseless cluster fuck of idiocy. I am tired of this shit and as soon as it's gone something else takes it's place. Now I now part of the problem is my fault, but I don't see a solution it just keeps getting worse and worse. I mean it's just a bunch of shit and I know everyone has one, but fuck there's a reason why I can't stand it. I feel like some people are born full of shit. Right now I can't even see straight I'm so irate. You do something for one thing and it seems like it's turning into something else. It just worries me. I don't know there's just some things I don't want to be without. I guess I'm just losing my fucking mind. Shit I will too. To make it worse what I'm talking about above is not even why I'm so irate.

Over, Out, and Goodbye...

Time goes on things tend to live, grow, and die in that order most of the time, but sometimes things just die. I just don't know anymore I've lost myself and sometimes stumble back. Like right now it's one of those rare occasions that just don't happen anymore I guess I've just moved on grow up or some stupid excuse like that. Maybe I'm just lying to myself I mean who doesn't these days, it almost seems like everyone is a political slut or just a slut. Just think about it is getting a disease and dying really what you want? I guess people don't give a fuck about themselves and degrade themselves and others just to have people like them and be friends with them, and then they tell me I'm the fucked up person and I don't even know these Idiots. It's pointless you might as well play in traffic it's basically what your doing anyway. It's not like I have anything to regret I can't change the past I just learn from it to better myself. Even if I did it would be fucking pointless that time is gone. Everyone's demise is coming you are and were born into it, but thats life living just to fucking die. Somedays I'd rather die than live, but who doesn't feel like that. The last time I didn't have a care about dying I was maybe fifteen without a care in the world and now I'm almost twenty. That's another thing that needs addressing, my picture on the main page is over two years old. I should probably update that, maybe I will by the time someone reads this. For now and until then.

Over, Out...

Sometimes things are better left to yourself. A whole bunch has happened in the past few month's and things are much better than what they used to be. So far me and Shorty moved to a new house and are getting married on April 13th. I also now have xbox live which is awesome and things are going extremely well. If anyone actually reads this and wants to play me on live my gamertag is HereticGhoul. Over, Out...

Things have a tendancy to progress or even regress, but this shall do neither for the time is almost here to release what's within and see with clear vision.